Temporary Misplacia

This pain
Is like jagged rips
In my heart
While memories, tears
Flow through my mind and over my face
Kneeling
Kissing
Cuddling
Whispering
In the dark
In the candlelight.
I need to come back,
Come home
And fit the pieces together,
To make the puzzle whole-
The way we became whole,
Completing each other
On cement and cotton.
I need to see the light
In your eyes,
The light that illuminates
My very soul.
Without it, I am blind
Lost
Alone.
I need to feel your skin,
Warm and alive,
Gliding over mine,
Heating and melting
The ice of my old hell.
Winter always returns
Without the sun.
Without light,
Flowers cease to bloom
And all of life fades.
Which is why I need you-
Because otherwise I am
Vaguely dead,
Discontent with mere existence
And colorblind to everyone.
I need your breath in my ear,
Your voice...
For what is life
Without music?
I need your laugh
And your smile
And
Oh God...
Your lips.
Bestowing, anointing me
With the most precious gift
Of your kiss.
Pure good
Pure love
Pure bliss.

My Incurability

Even drugs don't work. I've been to the doctor twice. Nothing seems to help my throat for more than ten minutes. I need my voice.
I write this from the depths of Medicine Land. Tylenol with codeine is usually enough to knock out pain for most people, right? It really hasn't had any effect on me, except for making me feel like everything is a little fuzzy...it's a little harder to focus. My mind slips from one subject to another. I'm drifting.
If I had swollen glands, the doc would have said I have mono....but nothing. I'm just kind of defying everything, medically.
I'm so tired. Constantly. I just have zero energy. Even typing this makes my arms hurt....I wonder what's wrong with me? When will I be back to normal?
I'm ready to be healthy again.

My Real Hiccups

I have hiccups. Right now. For the past two years, I've only had little hiccups after eating, like my dad and his mom. Finally I have real hiccups.
Best part of my week.
:D

Your Dreams

I will love you forever
If you’ll only be mine
I’ll love you for always
(And that’s a long time!)
If ever you fear,
Become angry or weep,
Remember that I
Will be there in your sleep.
In the deepest of dreams
I will come, dear, to you,
And avow of my love
So deep and so true.
We will run in bright meadows,
We will swim in clear seas.
We will be free to frolic,
And do as we please.
But if, love, you fear that
The dawn will bring anguish,
Be still and remember
Our love will not languish.
For my heart and your heart
Are made of the same mold,
And my heart, dear love,
Is yours always to hold.

My [Slippery] Good Day

Today was pretty much AWESOME!!
I woke up early (9:30) to take a shower and get ready to pick up Sara, since we had a lunch date. :) But Dad told me he needed to go to work, so I'd have to drive him in and reschedule with Sara, which was irritating but fine. I got all prettied up, but Dad asked me to help him with eBay, so we were HALF AN HOUR LATE getting into town. I hate being late. It makes me grumpy. Finally we were made it into town, and after I dropped him off I drove to Sara's. I decided (what the deuce was I thinking?) to try to take a different route to Sara's. I got lost, and then un-lost. I slipped two or three times, once almost plowing into the side of a parked truck. [Yikes!] I finally made it to Sara's house, but SURPRISE! I couldn't make it out of her driveway. The tires on the station wagon suuuuck. I don't like that car much. Anyways, after some shoveling and cursing we finally made it out.
ON TO ARBY'S!
I love Arby's. Their sauce and curly fries are like meth but without the nasty side effects. We stayed in there for TWO HOURS just talking and laughing. It was wonderful. On the way out we saw this guy I know from YL, his name is Tim. He's an odd duck. He's a nice duck. Sara and I did NOT want to say goodbye so we decided to randomly pop into one of my all-time favorite stores....THE DOLLAR STORE!! :D That was fun. We just wandered around. We bought glow sticks to bring to the next Speech meet, gigantic pencils, and tasty....delicious....wonderful....COTTON CANDY. Yummm.
Dad called with the news that his class had been canceled so he needed to be picked up. I invited Sara over, without asking my parents. Somehow I just knew they'd say yes.
Sara and I had the BEST time, just watching Juno and talking and eating cotton candy. Eventually, though, it was starting to get dark and Sara needed to go home. On the way, we needed to make just one stop.
And that is why I am sitting on my bed, listening to Lady Gaga and sipping a Blueberry Frost Freezer from the gas station. Life is good.

My Retardedednessocity

Do you ever forget how to put on your clothes? Like, how to start?

That seems to happen to me kind of a lot.

My New Year {2009}

It's been a quiet night. Except that I can't sleep. Which is still technically quiet. Except for IMing and blaring French music. The dark circles under my eyes make me look like a baby.

I want pomegranate green tea.
I wish they made pomegranate frogo. That would be rad.

It's 1:27 AM, do you know where your pancreas is?

Dystocia is a funny word.

I'm so tired but i'm afraid of trying to sleep.

Phobia. Phoebus. Phoebe. Phoebus, also known as Apollo. What was Apollo afraid of? Phoebe, a bird. FEE be. FEE be.
Romans: "Screw the phonetics! Hell, let's even make 'phonetic' impossible to spell!"
Greeks: "Dammit. Well...um....uh....THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!!!"
Romans: "Oh pu-leeze. You are all such drama queens. Ever heard of the roman legions, bitches? Cesar? Caligula?"
Greeks: [cower behind statue of Zeus]
Romans: "Damn straight."